September 2010
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I used to always look forward to talk to you, because you always knew the right words to say to cheer me up. You’ve changed, you changed into someone I can’t even recognize anymore. Sure, you still look the same, but your personality changed. It used to be so sweet and caring. What the hell happened? I guess your ego got too big. I miss the old you. Remember when you would stop whatever you...
August 2010
80 posts
Looking back.
I won’t regret anything that happened, even if I say I do. Things happen for a reason, and it made me who I am now. I just hope I don’t fall for any more lies. “but it is what it is, and what’s done is done. Looking back now I can’t say it wasn’t fun, I guess we had a good run.” I was never that good with relationships and boys. I always “fell” for the wrong guys and I ended up getting hurt in...
Sleep Schedule.
My sleep schedule is so fucked up because of summer. Now that school has started I have to wake up at 6AM. But I always end up falling asleep around 2-3AM. No matter how hard I try to fall asleep, I just can’t. I’m so tired at school which makes it hard to concentrate. I wish my classes were shorter or my days ended earlier. I hate having days where I end at 6PM. By the end of the day,...
Day 2.
Nine things about yourself.
1. I’m scared to know what the future has in store for me. 2. There are times where I’m very insecure about myself. 3. I hate my body weight and how some clothes fit me. I just really want to lose some extra pounds. 4. I smile a lot and I laugh really easily. 5. I get irritated easily.. and it takes a lot to gain my trust. 6. I’m very pale, and...
Fitness.
I’m sorta glad that my school switched my volleyball class to fitness. I had my first gym class today, and my teacher made us do all these exercises. I’m usually the type of person who sits around all day and does nothing, so I barely exercise. It was only the first class and my legs are sore. I wonder what I’ll be able to achieve by the end of this semester. If I’ll be...
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Day 1.
Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. 1. LN - You’re the only person I’ve been able to call a “bestfriend” for the past 4 years and more. I hope you’re able to come down this month, like you said you would. You’re the one of the very few I could trust with me “secrets.” Remember when he hurt me and you always texted me to...
These little girls try to act so hard and bitchy over the internet. Why do you even call yourself a bitch? “I’m the biggest bitch blahblahblah.” You dumb.
This boy, he has the cutest smile. He’s a friend of a friend, but we still hang around each other occasionally, but never spoke a word to each other. We glance at each other every now and then, but that’s it. Damn, why am I so shy?
Leading people on, I hate that situation. Where someone gets someone to like them, then make that person fall for them and then just drop them. If you knew you weren’t going to get involved with them, why are you going to make their hopes go up? Especially when you’re going to say “I don’t want to be in a relationship right now.” Seriously? If you didn’t want to...
I’m such a perfectionist when it comes to me school notes. Everything has to be neat, and if it isn’t I have to re-write it. I hate it, I get so lazy to re-write them, but I can’t stand it if it’s not neat.
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What I learned in psychology today. It’s common sense, but it applied to me today. The more “good looking” he/she is, the more he/she is intimidating, and harder to approach. So there’s this guy, and I’ve seen him around school. But everytime I see him, we exchange stares. Today, I just so happened to run into him three times. But I think he’s too “good...
School started and I’m going to not be on Tumblr as much. I have so many saved drafts, where all my private thoughts are. Today is only the second day of school, and I’m dead tired. Tuesdays are a killer, I start at 8 AM and end at 6PM. Today during Universal Break, it was pretty fun. Free food and free stuff, got home, had a family bbq, and chilled with the cousssinss. Yeah, this is a...
I didn't give up cause I didn't care, I gave up...
I used to be so happy.
All the time. I miss that.
I can admit I trip and I fall, but I'm always one...
“If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats...”
– Sirius Black
I miss being in a relationship. I see cute couples everywhere on Tumblr. :( </3
"Have you ever wondered which hurts the most,...
I wish it was easier to forget you, but you gave me so much to remember.
I’m the type of girl that can be so hurt, but can still look at you and smile. The type of girl who is willing to brighten your day, even if I can’t even brighten my own.
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Let me tell you a story of how I had to hide my identity. It was my birthday, July 31st 2010 and I spent the day with @whoaitskathy. We ended up at our usual location, a lounge called L2. There was this boy who’s name is Ivan. I didn’t know who Ivan was, but everyone else did. They warned me about him too. Anyways, I was offered $40 to go flirt with him, but once I saw him, I just...
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Omg. I want some fried chicken.
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Everything | B2K
It’s annoying how some people keep saying “FML” over something small. Your life isn’t fucked dumbshit.
"If you love someone, set them free. If they come...
I loved you, then I let you go. You came back, and you made me fall for you all over again. This time I’m letting you go and I’m hoping you never come back. Why? You caused me too much pain, and I did nothing to deserve that. You treated me like a rebound. Fuck that, I’m so done this time.
“You deserve better than him.” People have told me this line, over and over again. So why do I always fall for the wrong guy? I just want to be able to find someone I’m comfortable around, someone who understands me, and someone who’s able to make me feel happy. Is that just too much to ask for?
I hate being sick. I always have these crazy food cravings, I’m such a fat ass. I’ve been sick since …. Friday. This sucks balls :(
My brother.
I tell him everything. And when I vent to him, I tend to talk … a lot. He rarely listens though, he has mastered the ability to block out my voice. So everytime I ask him something, I have to repeat it multiple times which is sooo annoying.
Solar cream.
My friend thought sun screen was called “solar cream.” LOOOL
Someone keeps calling me late at night, like when I’m sleeping. This person even sends me blank texts. I texted this person, asking who they are and no reply. Uhhhh, whoever you are, stop disrupting my sleep : )
Why did I ever believe the words you told me? You fucking fooled me. This isn’t even the first time. This is exactly why I don’t want to be in a relationship. Play around with my feelings and then ditch. Thanks a lot.
Anonymous asked: hi you're pretty! kthnxbai
sfvxmobxdta-deactivated20110914 asked: You're hella pretty i thought I'd let you know ;]
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A girl can only..
julibaby:
A girl can only wait for a guy, for so long, that one day, she’ll get tired of waiting and leaves. A girl can only give you so many chances, that one day, her heart isn’t willing to take another heartbreak, anymore. A girl can only cry so much, that once she runs out of tears, she gets up, and realizes she needs to stay strong, and forgets about your ass. A girl can only put up with so...
I'm done. I give up.
If I acted like I didn’t care anymore, would you notice? Because I think that’s the only way to stop me from getting hurt any further.
I stopped wishing on 11:11, why? Because my wishes aren’t realistic enough to come true anymore.
It’s like an on and off thing, and lots of mixed signals. I’m trying my best, but I guess it’s not enough. I just need some reassurance.
I don't know what to believe anymore ...
As much as I love being single, I hate not having...
(via paaulrex)
I’m glad Kathy’s online today, since we’re both sorta on the same boat. Yeah I admit it, I teared up talking to her. We’re both dumb because of our actions. Everything she’s saying is really hitting me right now, how could I not notice this before? Sorry, I’ll probably spamming Tumblr tonight since I’m not thinking straight.
I feel crappy and I feel like giving up on everything.
I was just sitting in my room, staring outside and so many things were going through my head. So many memories just so happened to rush through my mind, so many questions unanswered. So I just sat there, reminiscing and it made me miss everything. Some memories just caused me to tear up, because I know something like that would never happen again. Both happy tears and sad. I used to be such a...
I don't say I love you to hear it back, I say it...
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I hate my legs. They’re thick and pale. I need to start working out, that is if I could get off my lazy ass.
So my school changed one of my courses, and it just so happened to be gym. They changed my Volleyball to Fitness … -______________- WHY?! I love Volleyball! And I checked who was in my class, and they’re all guys, great.
I stress over the smallest thing, which isn’t good. I’ll spend the whole day worrying about it, and won’t be able to concentrate on anything else. *sigh
